The Dog's Name

Translated by
Dr. Henry "Indiana" Jones, Jnr
Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Do you have one?

Am I alone, or do we all?

A regret that left in the dust of our past sits in the dark haunting those moments before sleep takes over. Something or someone that is the sum total of “roads not taken”, the measured direction or even the risky chance you should have taken.

And what if you moved on and forged new dreams? Built a new self and a new life…and then the past came knocking?

How powerful is our “what if”, if you had a dream in something or someone and suddenly years hence it was there for the taking, would you embrace it?* Or accept that the time for it had past?

Would you forsake what you have for the haunting dream you always wanted? Would you reject the fact that life had delivered you one full of unanswered prayers? How powerful are the dreams of your past?

That person, that except for timing was everything you ever wanted and everything you ever dreamed of, the summation of all your hopes…would you walk or even run from where you currently stand, ?

* And yes I have one. Her name is not important, save that I think about her from time to time, more so at night, and more so when the chill of loneliness seeps in from the darkness, and I wonder what or how I would react if she really ever walked back into my life? Would I give up what I have, or maybe what tomorrow may bring for a situation with different timing?

I don’t truly know. Shit, I wonder does anyone?

Last year in the Temple of Doom, Indiana unearthed: And Then She Didn't

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13 Comments:

DilettanteP said...: Hmm, I think we all get haunted by the ghost of a memory or that Past One...

I have a "him" walked back into my life once... but timing would never be good unless I take courage...

At the end of the day, I let my head rule me...; 10:37
Spike said...: Good post. I'm gonna post something on my blog in reaction to this post. Too long to leave as a comment.; 11:33
the VirginPornStar said...: I have one. :); 11:47
Jenna Howard said...: I agree with DilettanteP. I think everyone has a "what if, a could've been" floating in their past. And thanks to Facebook they're smack dab right there. Sigh. Stupid Facebook.

I have a potential one now. Just a matter to find out how brave I can/should be so I don't look back in a year, two, five, twenty and go "What if..."; 12:18
Wanderlusting said...: Beautiful.

I don't have one, thank God. Totally thought I would have but it's amazing how you can make yourself move on sometimes.

I agree with Jenna though - stupid Facebook. Although I had to delete my ex as a friend so I could get over him...it worked.

Plus, it helps that I now have YOU on my Facebook, hee hee.; 13:38
Miss Frou Frou said...: I think the hardest thing I ever learned is that sometimes the 'what ifs' need to stay what ifs... timing never right, and ultimately not meant to be, but I spent too many years checking if the timing was right now... he's not called Boomerang Boy for nuffin!; 18:20
Anonymous said...: Don't ponder anymore. Pick up the phone or drop her an email to see how she's doing. If she's still single and interested. My question is "why not"? Afterall, how many "the one" can we find?; 21:34
knobby said...: In the same vein: http://knobular.blogspot.com/2007/01/what-if.html; 21:52
Sarah said...: I don't know. Too much time has past and people change. I tend to side with Miss Frou Frou on this. Timing wasn't right for a reason. Now go find a Miss Right :); 22:09
Indiana said...: DP: Well I am not always god at letting my head rule...too often I still let my heart make all the decisions...which has proven interesting but not always the wisest course.

Spike: No worries...great post, I see you and I are on the same page that is headed "hopeless romantics"

VPS: As do I...thus the post ~grin~

Jenna: Well thus far I only have one Ex on my Facebook, and she is not the one I was referring too, and she and I are still quite amicable on the communication front. As for bravery...each man must find in his own heart the material to dampen his own cowardice.

Lusty: You are going to have everyone rushing to join your Facebook to try and work out who I am ~grin~ And I also have YOU on mine.

Miss FF: That is still a lesson I am yet to learn...because I still look with me heart and not my head and wonder.

Anon: Well I don't actually believe in the concept of the "one" thinking that instead we have many "ones" that are more a product or result of our choices...and why don't I do what you just ask...the same reason she and I ended in the first place...timing.

Knobby: Good post...insightful and yet still haunting.

Sarah: I agree timing is everything...and as for looking for a Miss Right, the only thing I can say to that is that I am. ~grin~; 00:03
Scorpy said...: Indy, great post...I thought I was the only one :)
I have a love lost and think and write about her often. No not my ex wife! She is the inspiration for many of my posts and I often think "What if...?". I don't dwell on it but she does pop up in my memories and dreams. She was the best thing in my life but, sadly, I let her go.; 08:47
Indiana said...: Scorpy: The regret of letting someone go who you maybe think you should not have eats away at us. The thing I just realised is that maybe we need to be better at letting go fully...not just "letting her get away" but actually "letting her go" so we can be more open to other wonderful opportunities.; 12:34
S said...: Funny I wrote a similar post not too long ago

http://howtomakenewfriends.blogspot.com/2007/07/tuesday-july-3rd_03.html

And said guy might be in town soon, and I find myself asking the same question about whether it would be worthwhile giving up what I have now for a possibility that things could work out this time.; 23:50